They draw their guns out.

There's a part of me that feels empty, and a part of me that feels... split and indecisive. It's like I'm walking the clothes line again, while holding an umbrella (or something). I really don't know what to make of this.

I (sincerely) hope it's not the case of the greens. Because if it is, all I would ask myself is... why am I letting this go?

It's...
A duel between the masters.
Bold Billy and Taciturn Man.

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I wish I could stop looking at you.
and all the things that you hope to do.
(and this is where it all begins,
where you find yourself a new batch of friends.)



Dude, forget about it!

MUTINY! MUTINY!

en masse - as a group or body
banal - dull
mutiny - rebellion against legal authority
abate - lessen in amount, degree, intensity
arbitrary -

1.	subject to individual will or judgment without restriction; contingent solely upon one's discretion: an arbitrary decision.

2.	decided by a judge or arbiter rather than by a law or statute.

3.	having unlimited power; uncontrolled or unrestricted by law; despotic; tyrannical: an arbitrary government.

4.	capricious; unreasonable; unsupported: an arbitrary demand for payment.

5.	Mathematics. undetermined; not assigned a specific value: an arbitrary constant.

–noun

6.	arbitraries, Printing. (in Britain) peculiar (def. 9).

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I keep depending on Tomorrow.

Why so much pressure on Tomorrow,
when Today is always isolated and lonely?


TODAY--! TODAY, I'M SORRY I IGNORED YOU.

The thin girl.

There are many times
when I look at myself
and think about
You and Me.

I'd say,
"Well.
You would like me more,
if I were thinner."

And both of you would agree.

Forgive me, Lord.
For I am so weak.
I resigned to myself,
and acquitted from my goals.
I feel so weak,
I can't bear to look at myself
straight in the mirror--
for that is the sorry price
I've paid for my
crimes.
The mirror taunts me,
The mirror also gloats.
She stares at me, through that mirror,
her belly button winking at me like her eyes
and they chide me for being so
vulnerable to myself.
I've lost,
to my ignorance,
and lost,
to my illusory, feigned, materialistic sham of happiness--
a sham that can only span for...
(what? three hours?)
Until it's done again.
And now my belly just flops
-relentlessly cascading-
deviously overflowing with greed
at the edges of my pants,
and seethes of revenge
because
"I have NOT treated it
like the temple it feels it is."
(Corinthians spews
of the laws I should have abided by;
I should have sworn my oath at the time.)
Why did I lose You,
amidst all this?

what's in a word?

hegemonically - control or dominating influence by one person or group, especially by one political group over society or one nation over others

caste - the class and rank or position of somebody in a society, according to birth, occupation, or some other criterion

bloc - a group of countries or political parties with a shared aim

chafe - (1) to become sore or worn by rubbing, or make something sore or worn in this way; (2) to cause friction; (3) to be or make somebody irritated, annoyed, or impatient

creolized - to form a new mixed language from two or more other languages

inexorable - adjective

1.	unyielding; unalterable: inexorable truth; inexorable justice.

2.	not to be persuaded, moved, or affected by prayers or entreaties: an inexorable creditor.

inviable - unable to survive, especially financially or biologically


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why do i care?





practice:
"Emily imputed wickedness to the caregiver for not answering her cries for help."